France, July 1st, 1916.
Soon after conscription, Allan and Bert were shipped to France and
had been there now for about two weeks. Their training was brief, not much more
than how to handle the rifle and how to attach the bayonet, because it was
unlikely that they would get close enough to the enemy to need hand to hand combat
training. However, Alan could handle himself in a scuffle and Bert had trained
as a boxer in public school, so they felt they could take on anyone in a fist
fight, but these rifles were another thing. How could you just kill a man?
The heavy artillery bombardment had continued
non-stop for eight days, deafening some and driving others almost crazy with
the constant noise of the cannon blasts and impact explosions, but it ceased
abruptly over the German lines at 7:30 a.m. Now that the barrage had stopped, the senses became more acute. The
smell of manure and rotting horse flesh was even more overpowering than the
stench of the latrines and what seemed like millions of flies were more
noticeable, buzzing around everyone’s face, landing on eyelids and mouths.
Fly infestations were possibly the most disgusting thing about
this war so far for Allan, the flies thriving on all this death and filth; that
and the trench foot, which was a killer when it turned gangrenous. Many a soldier lost his life, simply because
he didn’t have dry socks to wear. Allan had been warned when he first arrived
and so took simple precautions against this, changing his socks whenever possible
if they became wet and being careful to walk on the duckboards when he had to
move around.
It was the strangest feeling when the bombing
stopped. There was a deathly quiet. Not even the birds sang. No coughing, no
conversations, everyone was surprised and silent, waiting for the next move. Suddenly
a horse whinnied, breaking the tension.
Horses were commonplace behind the lines. Magnificent, beautiful animals that were used to transport supplies, move equipment and pull the body carts to and from the hospital tents, but unfortunately, horses were considered expendable and at times were used as a food source.
Most horses died from exhaustion or starvation. In many cases, they weren’t given enough water and so they found their own, drinking from contaminated puddles and dying in agony from heavy metal poisoning. The lucky ones were shot by snipers as they worked, so visible as they moved back and forth in the daylight hours.
Now
that the artillery bombardment had ceased the commands rang out,
echoing along the front-line trenches, “Attack…attack!”
Allan and Bert
received the order they had been dreading and dutifully climbed out of the
mud-filled trench that had been their home for the last eight days. They were
greeted by the distant sounds of the enemy guns, as they
walked side by side with their rifles held out in front of them, hoping that
they would be able to use them when the time came.
Other allied
soldiers began to climb out of the trenches and form lines. The British and
French had been instructed to keep walking in columns towards the German lines,
but the Germans were well bunkered and had good defensive positions on higher
ground. The bombing offensive had had little effect on them. They also had
machine guns. This gave them a huge advantage and they mowed down the British
and French troops mercilessly as they advanced towards them, like lambs to the
slaughter.
Allan could
see in the distance that men were dropping to the ground and others were just
stepping over them. Men were screaming and cursing the likes of which he had never
heard before and as they continued to walk across the field, the noise of
the machine guns became louder until it was almost as deafening as the bombs
had been.
“I can’t see
any of them,” yelled one soldier. “Where are they.”
Allan was
suddenly aware of strange whistling sounds that seemed to pass by on either
side of him. What was tha… Allan thought, before the realization hit him that he was now
within the reach of German bullets
“They’re
hidden behind those mounds,” someone answered.
“Can’t you see the
lights when they fire? Just like
fireflies. There, did you see that?” shouted Bert over his
shoulder.
Allan raised
his rifle and fired several bursts at the little dots of light. The man in
front of him fell to his knees and just for a second, he balanced there … before falling on his face in the mud. Men
continued to fall, some of them just lying there screaming, dying of atrocious
injuries, writhing on the ground with no one to help them. Allan couldn’t
believe the carnage that he was witnessing all around him and as his eyes
closed on the horror, his mind began to wander…
“You have to
have lots of patience to stand all of the dominoes on end,”
Allan
had
told his son one rainy, Sunday afternoon.
Sometimes it takes an hour or two, but then there’s the fun of watching them
fall down, though it happens really fast. If you space them just right, each
one will knock the next one down as they fall.”
And true to
his word, when the dominoes fell it was all over quickly, just as this battle
would be, the soldiers knocking each other down as they fell, just like the
dominoes. He smiled at the past memory, unable to stay focused on this
systematic slaughter, knowing that his death was imminent.
“I play that
game with young John every Sunday after chapel,” he said distractedly
to everybody and nobody in particular, a smile forming at the corners of his
mouth.
Suddenly,
Allan was splattered with blood. The soldier beside him had been shot in the
head, his brain exploding all over Allan, but he just instinctively wiped his
face with his sleeve and kept walking and thinking about his son.
Bert looked around, but before he could turn to help Allan, bullets ripped through his gut. He fell just in front of Allan and they looked at each other incredulously, Allan shot through the chest and Bert through the abdomen. Both lay there for a few moments, the noise of the battle going on around them and then fading … into … oblivion.…
It was so calm
here on the ground, thought Allan. The war seemed ethereal, almost unreal. All
he could hear was his heartbeat and the gurgling sound in his lungs. It was all over now, the last few days of
hellish conditions and fly infested food, the knee deep mud that
sucked at your legs, making it so difficult to move around, the noise –
the terrible noise of the bombs, the diarrhea from the lack of sanitation and
tainted water, the nauseating stench of the latrines and the paralyzing fear of
death.
Somehow
knowing that you were going to die and not being able to do anything about it
was more frightening than death itself. Now, lying here on top of a dead man,
Allan was relieved that the waiting was over and all he had to do now was to
die too. It wasn’t so bad if he didn’t breathe deeply. This dying part was
easier than living in the trenches, or worrying about when and how you would
die. The war seemed irrelevant now. What was it they were fighting for anyway?
“Will ye have
tae kill anyone?” Allan remembered his wife asking him before he left. Now, as
he drifted in and out of consciousness, he was having trouble concentrating. Had he firee his gun? He couldn’t remember if he’d killed anyone.
Belle wouldn’t like it if he’dd killed anyone.
Everything was
hazy. Oh, dear God, why couldn’t he remember? Where was Bert? He’d remember.
Allan was
confused for a moment. Why was he lying on the ground, and on top of another
fellow? Nobody was moving. Why didn’t
the other man complain? What was
wrong? And then, although still half
unconscious, he realized where he was. He looked around to find Bert, but in an
instant he was wide awake, his eyes were drawn to Bert’s belly. Allan heaved in
reaction to what he saw, and felt an incredible pain in his lung. Bert’s
insides were hanging out.
Just
looking
at Bert’s innards made Allan want to scream. The pain in his chest made him
want to scream even more, but he had enough trouble breathing.
Bert slowly
reached into his breast pocket, his hand shaking as his fingers struggled with
the single button, his strength fading fast, his lifeblood almost gone, and
then he held his hand out to Allan. In that hand was his prized silver
cigarette case, the one he had been awarded by the bank last year
to commemorate his promotion to manager.
The sunlight
filtered bleakly through the mist of the battlefield, but it
was enough to glint off the silver and give Bert a moment’s pleasure. “Smoke?”
he said, smiling at Allan, his grey eyes twinkling as he flipped the case open
with his thumb.
“No thanks my
friend. You know I don’t!” whispered Allan, smiling back
as best he could, touching Bert’s hand in camaraderie with his own trembling
fingers, then suddenly coughing violently, blood framing his teeth and lips,
his eyes fixed on Bert, marveling at his ability to die with such dignity and
grace. He was a true gentleman to his last breath. What were they all doing
here? What time was it? He should know the time when he and his
friend were to die.
Bert took forever to light his cigarette, slowly savouring the tapping of each end on his silver cigarette case to compact the loose tobacco strands. He wiped his lips with the back of his hand, to make sure the delicate wrapping paper didn’t stick to the blood that had seemed to appear from nowhere and then, holding the cigarette gently between his index and middle finger, he struck the lucifer, cupping it in his hands to protect it from the wind that wasn’t there.
Bert took forever to light his cigarette, slowly savouring the tapping of each end on his silver cigarette case to compact the loose tobacco strands. He wiped his lips with the back of his hand, to make sure the delicate wrapping paper didn’t stick to the blood that had seemed to appear from nowhere and then, holding the cigarette gently between his index and middle finger, he struck the lucifer, cupping it in his hands to protect it from the wind that wasn’t there.
He was immediately comforted by the familiar aroma of sulphur, and knowing that this cigarette would be his last, he inhaled deeply and smiled with satisfaction, his eyes clouding over almost instantly.
The smoke drifted slowly out of
his mouth as his last breath escaped. It rose from his body, intertwining with
his soul and disappeared into the heavens. The prized cigarette case
slipped from his fingers and became lodged in the mud.
Allan closed
his eyes, but he couldn’t close out the images of his dead friend. His last
thoughts, however, were of Belle and of his children.
“I’m so sorry, my love,” he whispered as he
lost consciousness again. “So sorry.”
Brenda Short joined the Wordsmiths in 2017 and has been writing as a hobby for twenty
years. She is working on several novels, has written many short stories and
dabbled in poetry. Her stories have been published in Focus 50+, on Commuter
Lit and in Briar Crier. Brenda works for New Tecumseth library
and is the liaison with Wordsmiths. She has attended Brian's workshops there. She
prefers to write murder mysteries and has completed several novels, but has
recorded her family history in a fictional biography, beginning at the turn of
the twentieth century and ending at the outbreak of WW2.
See Brian Henry's schedule here, including writing workshops and creative writing courses
in Algonquin Park, Barrie, Bracebridge, Brampton, Burlington,
Caledon, Collingwood, Georgetown, Guelph, Hamilton, Ingersoll, Kingston,
Kitchener, London, Midland, Mississauga, Newmarket, Orillia, Oakville, Ottawa,
Peterborough, St. Catharines, St. John, NB, Sudbury, Thessalon, Toronto,
Windsor, Halton, Kitchener-Waterloo, Muskoka, Peel, Simcoe, York, the GTA,
Ontario and beyond.
No comments:
Post a Comment
Note: Only a member of this blog may post a comment.