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| Personell of the First Special Service Force, also known as the Devil's Brigade |
Today I bought a digital
poppy. I dedicated it to my father.
As I typed his name I wondered if he would approve, understand or even care. He
had fought in the Second World War. But he seldom spoke of those years and I
possess very little knowledge of his time as a soldier. He was part of the
Devil’s Brigade, officially The First Special Service Force.
The history of this elite unit is now easy
to find, and some of the soldiers have worked hard to be acknowledged and
remembered. But my father did not. His story is lost. He was a veteran but a
reticent one. He didn’t join the Legion, ever wear any of his medals or even
apply for a pension. Every Remembrance Day he went to work at the skate
factory, pausing his machine for only two minutes at 11:00 while I enjoyed a
full day off from school, the irony lost on me. I don’t recall him ever wearing
a poppy.
Did
I just say my father was reticent, imply that he was reserved? He wasn’t. He
loved life and approached it with a raw enthusiasm few could match. He was
intense, sometimes reckless, defiant and flamboyant.
I
try to picture him enlisting, escaping a large, very poor family, not quite a
man yet, but choosing to join an army that would send him to Halifax for basic
training. He did tell me once, while we were on vacation in Nova Scotia, that
he had stood on that pier years before while waiting, impatiently to be shipped
off to Europe, yearning for action. The call came in the form of a request, the
American Army was looking for volunteers to join a parachute battalion. My
father was probably the first in line.
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| Member of Devil's Brigade in training |
It’s
all a bit complicated but the unit became a joint Canadian/American special
fighting brigade. The training, postings and missions are well documented so I
can imagine my father as he became one of the almost seven hundred Canadian
soldiers, officers and enlisted men, who were transported from Canada to
Helena, Montana, for training in parachuting, cold weather endurance, skiing,
and rock climbing.
My father did it all, going first to Africa
and then Italy or maybe it was France according to the history books. But I’m
sure I remember him telling me that he jumped from a plane, landed in the Alps,
clamped on his skis and schussed his way
into Italy. He made it sound like fun, an adventure. But I wonder? How does a
man feel falling from the sky with skis, poles, food, gun and ammunition, landing
on a snowy mountain and then skiing into a war zone?
The
unit was disbanded in 1944 and at some point my father went to the front line,
but I don’t know if this was special mission or a Canadian Army posting. I
know nothing about the time he spent there or even where he was, but movies and
books have forced me to imagine these two years with horror and sadness. My
grandfather passed away during this period. My father once said he didn’t know
for nearly a year.
My
father was on his way to fight the Japanese, another volunteer opportunity, when
they surrendered and his time at war was over. He was returned to Canada where
he declined a medical exam prior to discharge. He was impatient, impetuous and
always restless.
His
life unfolded quickly then, normal, common place events; a job as a factory
worker, marriage, a house and two baby girls. Photos show a happy man but that
wasn’t the whole truth. He was damaged. He angered quickly, fits of rage and
then regret. He loved to party, drinking wildly with his family and friends.
This led to a darkness, never diagnosed but I guess depression.
He
was a good father, kind, generous with his time and his love. He worked hard
and provided well but before he was forty he had a heart attack. My mother
blamed the war. Five heart attacks, massive damage and then risky
open heart surgery. Against all odds he lived four more years.
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| Personnel of the Devil's Brigade on patrol |
My
father left us few mementos of the war, only a heavy iron padlock which I
always imagined secured his foot locker and a large knife which ended up in his
fishing tackle box. It’s lost now, but I found a photo online and was shocked
to learn it was a fighting knife, made especially for the Force, for killing.
There
are not many photos of my father in uniform, some head shots and a few more
formal ones. They all seem to be from before he left home, before the fighting. He
kept his medals in a blue Birks jewellery box high on the shelf in his closet.
I never saw him take them out. We had them mounted for his first grandson. I
have only a browned and tattered document from the City of Kitchener
acknowledging his service, welcoming him home. I rescued this from the crawl
space of my parent’s home.
I
realize now that my dad went to great efforts to obliterate this war. No
artifacts, no stories, no glory, no old army buddies. When I studied the War in
high school I asked him nothing. I had never been told but I knew it was off
limits, silently forbidden. Always the romantic, I believed he was protecting
us. But he was fighting for himself. He had to bury the soldier, the battles
and the casualties. When they threatened to return he pushed them deeper, with
rage or alcohol. But he was scarred, damaged both physically and mentally. That
he lived so well astounds me.
So
my digital poppy is online now, engraved with his name, a sergeant few will
remember. It will disappear with Remembrance Day but it has served me well,
affording me the chance to think about my dad. I have so much to remember. My
father just wanted to forget.
Wendy Simpson lives and sells real estate in
Oakville. Although her university days are long behind her she’s never lost her
love of reading. She is the mother of three adult children and three (soon to
be four!) grandchildren. She travels as much as possible and loves to spend
several weeks each year in Victoria and the Cayman Islands.
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