Breathing heavily from my full out dash from
the subway, I reached the stoop as the clock began to strike
11. I knew he would be waiting up. As I sprinted I kept picturing in my mind’s
eye his crisp judgmental flick of the newspaper. Imagining his spectacled face
peering critically around the front page, clucking his tongue like a god-damn
mother hen. A pretense of civility. A thin veneer veiling a heartless monster.
Let the fun begin, I thought to myself as I pushed open the door.
“Dad, I’m home!” I whispered quietly into the dimly lit entryway, mentally
adding, Please, please, please be in bed.
I drew my heavy peacoat closer to my body as I
softly turned, locking the door. Nothing. My heart pounded through my ears.
Nothing. I forced my breathing to slow, listening hard. And still, nothing. As
I started to move quietly towards the stairs, relief flushed through my cheeks.
Luck, it would seem, was on my side. Unaccustomed as I was to good fortune, I
wasn’t truly surprised when an imperious sniff emanated from the dining room. I
began to sweat instantly, despite the cold.
“Hiya, Dad,” I said. “Yep, home by 11. Just like you said.” I
let a little false cheer into my voice. The entrance hall clock read 11:01.
“You just made it, Lacey my lovely” he said.
It was hard for me to believe words of apparent care could carry such
menace. He continued, “I was just reading the paper. How unsafe it is out there
for young girls like you.”
“Yes, Dad” I replied. I let my voice sing-song a
little, hoping to keep the tone light. To somehow hold back the river of ugly
words I knew could come. “My shift ended a little late, and I nearly missed the
train – but I’m here now. I have an early shift tomorrow so I think I’ll
get some sleep.”
I let my head move around the doorframe and saw
him just as I had envisioned, hair and hands barely visible around the evening
paper. “Good night!” I said, a bit hopefully, but not too much so. I watched
him, waiting to see which way this would go.
He sniffed again. I crossed the fingers of my
uninjured hand. Let it go let it go, please just let it go. I so wanted to get up the stairs to my blessed
room. This man was capable of a great many things, but he had yet to break down
a door. I tried not to appear over eager.
“Good night, love,” he said at last. “Pancakes for breakfast?”
I shuddered, then dared a soft “Good night, Dad.” I didn’t
reply about the pancakes. I decided to risk ending the conversation there. As I
turned away, I caught the headline of the front page between his closed fists.
“SIXTH BODY FOUND” with the subtitle “Heartless Killer!”
I moved then, inching towards the stairs, not
wanting to be there a second longer, but not wanting to appear overly rushed, forcing
myself to patiently take the steps one at a time. My hand throbbed. My head
hurt. I needed rest. Not much farther. I made my way to the landing, then
along the short hall to my bedroom. An eternity later, I reached the door.
Fumbling with the lock, I listened for
footsteps. There were none. The smell of old books and the warm glow of an old
electric lantern greeted me as I entered my sanctuary. I loved coming
back to this private space.
Despite my pain, I carefully secured the deadbolt, taking time to hear it fully engage. Then and only then, did I allow myself to rush to the bathroom, in three giant hurried steps, letting my coat with its full pockets fall heavily to the floor along the way.
Despite my pain, I carefully secured the deadbolt, taking time to hear it fully engage. Then and only then, did I allow myself to rush to the bathroom, in three giant hurried steps, letting my coat with its full pockets fall heavily to the floor along the way.
My hand was really hurting now, and I thrust it
under the cool water, not bothering to roll up my sleeve. The water flowed
crimson, and the ugly gash I had received was, well, still ugly. As the water
flowed, my head cleared, and the pain abated slightly. I breathed in and out
slowly, the relief visceral.
I gathered my thoughts. Christ, I was so
careless. I inspected the damage. A solid line of blood from one side of my
palm to the other. It hurt, badly, but I had considerable self-doctoring
experience. This was a quick fix, though it would hurt for a while. I wrapped
and bandaged the hand snugly, and secured it, then took two ibuprofen with
water from the tap before sinking onto my bed and pulling my coat up into my
lap.
I negotiated the heavy fabric, feeling it,
finding the pockets. From one pocket, I withdrew a gallon sized ziploc, shut
tight, containing sealed and safe its precious cargo. From the other, I drew a heavy
blade, still a little wet with blood, and laid them both on the plastic tarp
resting on the floor next to the bed. I rolled them skillfully into the plastic
tarp, then set them gently in my hope chest.
“Ha!” I laughed out loud at the thought. Out of
one chest, into another…”
Lisa Martin is a teacher of all things math and science in
northern California. When she’s not teaching, she loves ice skating, cooking
and nursing a mug of coffee. While she loves the outdoors and has been to many
different places around the world, her favorite place is home with her husband
David, and her entourage of slobbery dogs.
See Brian Henry’s schedule here, including Saturday writing workshops, weekly writing classes, and weekend retreats in Algonquin Park, Alliston, Bolton, Barrie, Brampton, Burlington, Caledon, Collingwood, Georgetown, Georgina, Guelph, Hamilton, Jackson’s Point, Kitchener-Waterloo, London, Midland, Mississauga, New Tecumseth, Oakville, Ottawa, Peterborough, St. Catharines, Sudbury, Toronto, Windsor, Woodstock, Halton, Muskoka, Peel, Simcoe, York Region, the GTA, Ontario and beyond.
Was not expecting that twist! Well done!
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