We enter the city of Colombo and are
immediately engulfed in trucks, buses, cars and bullock carts. The stench of
fish being transported to the market invades our car like a coiled snake, silent
yet potent. We hear raised voices, cars honking impatiently, chaos all around,
and although anxious about grandmother’s illness, I am excited to be in the big
city. We left our quiet home town at dawn.
Approaching my grandparents’ house,
we notice the garden edged with rows of white plastic chairs and the wrought iron
gates wide open. Dad slaps his palm against his forehead.
He drives slowly up the driveway to the house, and stops. His head and
shoulders slump against the steering wheel and remains still. Mom reaches out across
the car seat and holds him.
“Come Daniel,” he tells me, and
we slowly get out of the car.
Aunty Lakshmi, Dad’s sister, quickly
approaches the car, and hugs him as he steps out.
“When did it happen?” Mom asks
gently.
“Early morning,” says my aunt. “You’d already
left home, there was no way of informing you, and anyway it’s a long drive, we
did not want to upset you.”
Aunty Lakshmi’s nose is red from
crying. She and her husband, Uncle Wilson, remain at the entrance to greet
people. Mom slips her arm around Dad and
they stay silently together in the kitchen, Dad stares out of the window with
unseeing eyes. He shows no emotion. He is dazed, as if it were too much to
grasp.
My cousin Sharon, with the
birthmark above her lip, holds me by the arm and we slip out to the garden. We caress the flowers that grandmother has
grown with love and care remembering how she talked to her plants. Now, who will
talk to the yellow roses and the red anthuriums? A fruit from the Jack tree has
fallen and split open. It is attacked by crows with relish, their sharp beaks
penetrating the soft flesh. The pungent smell hangs in the air.
My grandmother is in a coffin which
has been placed in the centre of the living room. The chairs lining the walls
are occupied by family and friends. Aunty Seetha is sobbing, which prods Aunty
Joyce to a fresh bout of weeping. Aunty Joyce, her makeup smeared, hurriedly
rummages in her bag for a handkerchief. Uncle Jayantha is looking down at his
shoes, observing them with great care.
Grandfather sits, silently
nodding at people as they talk to him, absorbing nothing, overcome with grief. I’ve
never seen grandfather like this but this is my first time at a funeral. Grandmother
appears different, smaller in her white sari in the coffin, almost a stranger. There are others talking softly, regarding
the cause of her death.
I hear a whisper. “Where is
Jerome?”
“Who knows, maybe he won’t come.”
“Of course he will. The house, would he not get his share?”
“The other children, would they protest?”
Sly glances are exchanged as my
pretty aunt Lakshmi leaves the room abruptly biting her lips, eyes downcast. I
overhear her in the passage which leads to the bedroom, complaining to my uncle
that these people should mind their own business. I am puzzled about this
Jerome they are referring to, not having heard of him before.
Aunts and Uncles come throughout
the day, giving me hugs and patting my head they ask me how old I am and comment
on how grown up I am for a twelve-year-old boy.
“You must be missing school, no?”
says Aunty Noeline.
I nod, not caring about the classes I’m
missing. In the midday heat the sari blouses of the aunties are wet with
underarm sweat and faces smeared with tears. I avoid the embraces by going into
the bedroom and staying under the fan, pretending to be asleep.
I can overhear them talking: “The
child is tired, long trip no?”
Aunty Lakshmi’s voice unusually
sharp: “I hope he doesn’t turn up
here”.
I wonder who she is referring to
and eventually drift off to sleep.
A commotion from the group of men
at the back of the garden wakes me up. I saw them previously, discretely
consuming a bottle of Arak. Simon a neighbor is accusing Dad of keeping Jerome
away from the house.
Dad’s authoritative voice is deep
and clear: “Take the knife from Simon.”
I quickly slip through the back
door just in time to see a scuffle.
“You filthy dog. You’ll get what you deserve.
You watch out!” threatens Simon, swaying unsteadily.
I hear another voice: “Get the
vagrant out of the compound.”
There are cries to call the
police. People inside the house are streaming into the garden. People passing
by are crowding in through the gates, others who had left before are returning
to investigate.
I am urged into the house by my
harried aunt. “Go in, go in, what are you doing here, go into the room and stay
there,” she commands.
I am scared and confused. Should
these things be happening at Grandmother’s funeral?
I run
in and see my grandfather, alone, squatting on the floor, covering his head
with both hands, swaying back and forth, softly moaning. The living room is
empty except for Grandmother who lies silent in the coffin, no longer in the same
bed she shared with Grandfather for the past sixty years.
I crouch beside Grandfather and place
my hand in his. Slowly we rise. Still holding hands, we sit beside each other
until Dad enters the room. The tears that I didn’t shed before are coming down
uncontrollably. I wipe them away with the back of my hand.
Between sobs I choke out, “We
must visit Grandfather every month now.”
Dad hugs me and says, “Yes
Daniel, we will”.
Dad’s face crumples as he grasps grandfather‘s
hand. An unspoken rift is laid to rest.
Nadine
Rodrigo was
born in Quebec and grew up in Sri Lanka,
which has influenced much of her writing. She sees writing like having a baby:
you give birth to your story, nurture it tenderly and rein it in when necessary
and hope the ultimate result will be splendid.
See Brian Henry's schedule here, including writing workshops and creative writing courses in Algonquin Park, Barrie, Bracebridge, Brampton, Burlington, Caledon, Collingwood, Georgetown, Guelph, Hamilton, Ingersoll, Kingston, Kitchener, London, Midland, Mississauga, Newmarket, Orillia, Oakville, Ottawa, Peterborough, St. Catharines, St. John, NB, Sudbury, Thessalon, Toronto, Windsor, Halton, Kitchener-Waterloo, Muskoka, Peel, Simcoe, York, the GTA, Ontario and beyond.
Beautifully written, Nadine. Once again, you transport us to the scene with your flair for the descriptive and strong characters. Loved it!
ReplyDeleteBlessings <><
Hi Nadine. Moving piece. Captured grief at different angles. Poignant and holding out hope at the end.
ReplyDelete